half empty

It just came across my mind

How it would feel to become a child again

I stared at the mirror

Imagining how I looked when I was a child

Not just the outlook

tell me WHY .....

Why do I feel this way?

One moment I'm happy,

Next thing you know, I'm lowly. 

Why do I miss him? 
His voice i long to hear,
Every minute in my ear.

Why is he so sweet? 

It turns me weak, 

Makes my HEART meek. 

Why should I be bothered?

If he likes me, FINE 

If he doesn't, SIGH! 

Why do I like him?

There's something that I feel, 

When I do not him real,

Why o why? 

Do these questions come to my mind?

May the ANSWERS be find ....  

                                                                                                    '98 

release....

I cry 

                         to ease the pain 

Inside me, 

I smoke

                              to ease the tension 

In me, 

I eat

                                             to ease my hungry stomach

                   Rumbling every now and then,

I laugh

                                            to forget the world's that's 

Taunting me, 

I love 

                       to be happy? 

No, 

                          But, 

Because of YOU! 

eureka!

Here in my room

All alone

A stormy day

Yes it is!

Afraid, am I

No one to talk to

I think I’m going insane

Sigh, I want to cry

Shout, I want to out loud

Strong winds coming

Lightning strikes

Then comes the thunder

The gate opens

Someone’s knocking

Should I open it?

I looked through the window

Oh yes!

Thank God!

Now I’m not alone

Mama is here

To me so dear

But wait….

How could it be?

It’s been 20 years now

That she has been dead

What is happening to me?

EUREKA!!!

I’m INSANE!!!

     He! HE!